Saturday, July 05, 2003
You are so terribly nimble, so clever. I distrust your cleverness. You make a wonderful pattern, everything is in its place, it looks convincingly clear, too clear. And meanwhile, where are you? Not on the clear surface of your ideas, but you have already sunk deeper, into darker regions, so that one only thinks one has been given all your thoughts, one only imagines you have emptied yourself in that clarity. But there are layers and layers -- you're bottomless, unfathomable. Your clearness is deceptive. You are the thinker who arouses most confusion in me, most doubt, most disturbance.
- Anais Nin
Friday, July 04, 2003
Its weird that for majority of the people the most significant happenings in their life take them by surprise.Am sure many of you might have felt at some point or the other that when u meet someone be it boy or gurl that u almost feel like somehow u know already know that person for a long time, probably because of the connection made or because of the similarities between the two of you But then u don't take time out the share the differences no matter how subtle , u take it for granted that there is nothing more to that person becasue u already know whatever there is to know..but there alwayz is somethin new ,something different which u refuse to see...
Things happen in our lives for a purpose,people come into ur lives for a reason. we don't know just yet what it is.....everything wants to connect but mostly ended up not not doing so coz we don't allow it to...we block anything and everything becasue of our notions or because of the fact that it was not meant to be so we'll just drop it at that.
If things are not meant to be they won't and there is nothing one can do to stop it.Things that are meant to be together or are meant to take place no matter how wrong it may feel to you or anyone else will happen even if u try to stop it ,it will just take a rebound in ur life at some point or the other..and then u will realise..and think to urself as to how u cud have missed it before??...something that was there in front of ur eyes..something that u took for granted.
Thursday, July 03, 2003
Like one On a lonesome road
He walks in fear and dread
And having once turned round, walks on
And turns no more his head,
Because he knows, a frightful fiend
Close behind him treads.
The thing about wearing spec/contacts is that even if we wear it constantly our number never decreases ( as the eyes doc claim that they will) .I have never seen anyones number decrease, is just goes up, up ,and eventually away ;-) A year back lasik seemed to be the ultimate solution for restoring normal vision at a heavy price and an even heavier risk. Its no that I have lost faith in laser surgery coz I have a buddy who had undergone lasik 5 yrs back and till date her eyesight is absolutely fine and she has had no complications whatsoever..but then it remains to be seen what will happen 10 yrs down the line.
Then there is the chinese QI (Prounced as Chii or Chee) method wherein they teach u how to tap in ur positive QI or postive energy and channelise it into giving u better health including curing of eyesight after a couple of years of doing it.I remember a few weeks back two American docters...a wife- husband duo to be precise were holding a workshop for 3 weeks where they claim that anyone who wanted perfect vision would be taught the art of QI method...which is funny bearing in mind the chinses monks claim that it takes atleast a year to perfect it!!.Dunno whom to believe, at this point of time they all seem like frauds.One important thing the docs said was that spec and lenses only make the eye worse coz the eyes get used to seeing with the help of them lenses, meaning if we continue wearing our vision will never be improved...by undergoin QI training they say we have to carry on small tasks without our lenses ( which is rather impossible for me to do coz am practically blind without my lenses.Everything is a blurr...soundz dangerous to moi ) .
Oddly enough this is not the first time I have heard this case .In Kerala them holistic guyz recommend reading in candlelight...looking at the sunrise in the wee hours of the morning...do this and well in a year apparently ur eye wud be as good as new!! ( Either that or u cud end up being blind ...the risks are just inevitable ).
Its a fight betweem the traditional and modern methods of healing each with its own pros and cons.
For now am just gonna be a bunny and chomp on carrots,do eye exercises( I don't do that no more) and take my caps.Maybe somday they will find a way to help us out.lets hope they do..:-)
Its such a problem drivin around town...I almost crashed into another bike because some buffon wanted to overtake me!!..I mean jeez I don't get it when I have put the right indicator on plus am showing my right hand meaning am turning 'RIGHT'...some dumbass or blindass decides it wud be wise to head straight at me.I don't thing anyone taught him the etiquettes of driving that whenver u want to overtake u go the opposite side or atleast u cud honk !! ot atleast give me a some sorta warningthat ur coming and then he has the nerve to tell me it was my fault!!! arrrgh..what doea he want me to do carry a pole with a red flag on it that says 'AM TURNING RIGHT DO NOT BE A FOOL AND OVERTAKE ME FROM THAT SAME SIDE'. I have to be overly alert while driving coz I constantly encounter pigs, sheep,( yes sheep I had to wait 10 screwed minutes coz they occupied the enitre lane ) ,cows, stray dogs running in front of my vehicle, potholes in the middle of the road,speedbrakers that have no markings it almost makes u think they were purposely put there,stupid ppl on cycles who think they own the road and even stupidier ppl who want to cross the road in the face of oncoming traffic!! If u want to be one with the universe ,there are plenty of other wayz u can do it ,just don't jaywalk in front on my bike and get me in trouble...